I dread this day every year. Today marks number 7. So many thoughts and emotions swirling around in my head. The sentence on repeat for the last few hours has been, “What’s the Lesson?”
What’s the Lesson, when you are so loyal you are blindsided?
What’s the Lesson, when you have such faith in your choice that you can’t see reality?
What’s the Lesson, when you love so hard yet you are shattered into a million pieces?
What’s the Lesson, when you want to be strong but you are so utterly broken?
What’s the Lesson, when the abuse is so harsh you fail to understand its depths?
What’s the Lesson, when you are controlled so intensely you don’t know how to recover?
What’s the Lesson, when you endure such intense psychological abuse that you cannot stop hearing the words?
What’s the Lesson, when you are left with such devastation to clean up?
What’s the Lesson, when you trusted wholeheartedly only to be betrayed?
What’s the Lesson, when you were told that you are worthless?
What’s the Lesson, when you are put on a path intended to make you struggle?
What’s the Lesson, when you are wished the worst by someone you trusted?
What’s the Lesson, when you are hurt and damaged by the choices of the one who was meant to protect you?
What’s the Lesson, when you are taken advantage of by others?
What’s the Lesson, when your fear is so monumental you are overwhelmed?
What’s the Lesson, when 7 years later you are still alone?
What’s the Lesson, when you need help but no longer have the energy to find it or ask for it?
What’s the Lesson, when you continue to feel raw from abandonment?
What’s the Lesson, when you thought you were safe but safety was the furthest thing from the truth?
What’s the Lesson, when your brain is so foggy you can’t think straight?
What’s the Lesson, when every decision is on your shoulders to make yet you are so scared to make one and fear making the wrong one?
What’s the Lesson, when you have difficulty with trusting others?
What’s the Lesson, when you crave support but you are tired, in fact exhausted managing it all alone?
What’s the Lesson, when every day feels like a battle for survival?
What’s the Lesson, when you want to learn more and solidify your faith, but Judaism is based on a family unit something you only can dream of?
What’s the Lesson, when you cry to Hashem, begging for understanding, help, support, guidance, change yet the list just gets longer and longer?
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